Normally around this time of the year I start panicing. Not just because of the exams and revision, but because of my weight. No matter what size I am, how much I've lost or how much I don't care, I somehow always full in the trap. But this year I was doing so well! So well that I honestly didn't care, when I was reading magazines about weight problems I skipped the page and carried on (something that would normally grab my silly self). Untill yesterday. Supersize vs. Superskinny :| Damn that programme. I normally wouldn't watch it because how EVERYTHING in that show has been manipulated to see people in their horrors and even yourself - not a good outlook at all - but I was in the middle of photography work and really didn't have time to worry what was on television. So I left it on. Thinking that I'd be able to forget about it in the background. BUT no. There I was slowly becoming conscious of all my bad things, even making me angry about the superskinny because she was acting like pasta was a huge hairy spider with a needle just waiting to take her blood. Silly woman. The hatred for this show has just shot up again.
However, I'm going to try to forget about this silly hour of my life and try to celebrate the good things about me, I was far too positive the other night to let an hour destroy all self-esteem I had finally got.
Therefore, this is also to anyone reading this, now thinking about their annoying parts and bits, because things like this just instantly make you think of things you'd put to the back of your mind. Firstly; I am sorry! Secondly; everyone person has good - great even - points. You make the people around you laugh and smile, you have conquered so much in your past - won awards, stood on a stage, passed exams, you've helped someone, you've been congratulated. That was all you. Because life isn't all about weights or how you look, the personality shines much brighter. However chiche this sounds; it's still true. It's so easy to forget about those points because media shines bright images of what 'perfect' is. What false is. It's easy to forget what's good and focus on the bad; but just for once, look at yourself, look at your good points, be optimistic. Never say never.
What a fantastic post! I apologise for missing this when it was posted, for some reason my blogger screwed up and started ignoring your blog and not letting me get on it...(glares evilly at blogspot). Anyway, I found this today, and this is a brilliant post - I tell you what, your positivity is infectious! It's heartening to see you so full of confidence, and you're dead right - s'what I've been trying to do as well.
ReplyDeleteYou raise a good point too - the media portray this faux-perfection, but at the same time we all have the ability to reject what we see, and not believe what the media tell us we should. I'll tuck this blog in my favourites and read it when I need a good injection of self-confidence :)